A Father on Paper. Part Two.

It’s been over a week since I wrote A Father on Paper ~ Part One.

I thought I had a lot of thinking to do, a decision to make. It finally occurred to me that I was thinking way too much, and had built a whole something out of essentially nothing.

All I really needed to decide was whether I would make contact with an old friend of my fathers. That was it, that is all I have control of. Whether I make contact.

I had made an assumption that if I made contact, she would instantly alert my father, then he would either want to make contact with me, or reject me again. My brain swirled with ‘what ifs’ ; Would I see him if he wanted to see me? How hurt would I be if he didn’t want to see me? What if he wanted to be part of his granddaughters life? What if he didn’t? I admit, I completely blew the situation out of proportion.

The thing is, she might not even be in contact with my father any more. She might not necessarily even tell him anything about me, if they are still in contact. Why have I been stressing myself out over a whole heap of things that haven’t even nearly happened yet? Do I need to decide right now, how I would react to every possible scenario?

No. All I need to decide is if I want to make contact with someone I was close to over a period of time when I was a child. Why complicate everything now? If something leads from making contact with her, well then I may have some more thinking to do, more decisions to make. Today I only have one decision.

I will make contact with her. I would like her to see that I’m all grown up now, and have my own beautiful family.

I think she would be really pleased to hear from me. It’s that simple. xx

04 comments on “A Father on Paper. Part Two.

  • Brooke Elmer , Direct link to comment

    I loved this post, so true. I am very much an over-thinker and do this same thing with many things in life. Love your realisation that you were worrying about variables that may not even come to fruition… we do this so often in life, I saw a quote floating about on FB in the last month or so saying something to the effect that “99% of the things we worry about won’t ever happen…” this resonated with me because if we let that 99% of worries hold us back from doing things in life there will be so many missed opportunities laying behind us.

    • Hesitant Housewife , Direct link to comment

      Thanks Brooke. It’s crazy how we let our minds run away on us, isn’t it! That quote is so true, must try and source an image for it, and share it on the FB page :) xx

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